I'm tired again. It seems like this shit just won't end. I will never feel better, I will never stop feeling this level of constant queasy/sick. My bones hurt. There are times I wish I could just take a bath to steam all the aching out, and then curl up in bed and sleep the pain away, like in the old days. But I'm a mommy now, and I can't do that much because my baby needs me to be strong for her. Used to be that I could do the bath/sleep thing every day when I needed it. Not now. I need Mother's Little Helpers. I need the non-addictive non-harmful equivalent. For now, I'll find that in my daughter's smile. That smile will give me the strength I need.