Another stress-filled and hair ripping day. Her Ladyship only went to sleep two hours ago. She's now sleeping. She had better stay sleeping until Mommy has some sleep. If not, I foresee nothing but nasty things for my future.

Stress only rises higher when you haven't slept. Hormones are raging because of the meds my doc put me on last week, and they are not expected to return to sanity any time in the next three weeks. Also, the Boy had a pretty tough day as well. This adds up.

Not to anything neat, either. Our sanities were both in the tail end of rational this evening, we had an almost fight ending with the Boy going out to get a beer. When he got back he told me that the thing he was most upset over now was that he finds it impossible to be an asshole. He presented me with a cherry garcia ice cream novelty. I presented him with a shoulder full of tears and some long hugs.

There are days when I wonder what century we inhabit emotionally. For another couple our "age" what we would expect to see would be a screaming match ending up with him drunk and me crying and then giving him the cold shoulder. Concluding with hurt feelings and resentment all around. What are we waking up to in the morning? Perfect harmony and understanding following our before-bed hashing out of the problem and negotiating a fair solution that doesn't trample on either of our feelings.

Feelings. Nothing but..... feeeeeelllllings.

I'm a bit punchy at the moment. I haven't slept. The nap I sorta promised myself this morning was preempted by Cranky Toddler and PoopFest '07. Then we had to run out to the DMV. Typical government rationale- because he showed up two -TWO- minutes past the time (due to the time spent parking the car and standing in line) the driver's test had to be canceled and we were told to come back another time.

Hence our double mad moods. Because that was just the last straw for both of us. We are, however, very proud that we did not take it out verbally on each other until we were ready for the settlement of the issue. Also, we both kept the hot buttons out of it. When we were hashing out relationship ground rules many moons ago we agreed to keep a disagreement on topic. Don't bring in the minor or side issues. It doesn't have anything to do with the topic, the fight, and has no purpose other than to hurt the other.

And for some crazy reason we respect ourselves and each other too much to screw this up.